my sketchbook this year fucking sucks. I don't know why, I don't know why my drawings are all fucking terrible. is it weird if I get insulted because people don't think I know how to draw people? because the sketches in my sketchbook are terrible. I dont think ive posted ONE thing from my carry around sketchbook. So i guess people think its safe to assume I cant draw people. but i can. this years sketchbook is just... so. bad.
I don't have any life drawing IN them to counteract the bad. I can draw. this year is tough. I feel like everyone in all of my classes is pulling ahead, and I'm floundering behind them in a pool of self doubt. Its a vicious cycle, you doubt, your drawings get more confused, and worse. I've been trying new techniques out, copying sketches, doing my own version of pieces. and its helping, but ...I'm just flummoxed.
totally venting to vent, not entirely implying that I need some hugboxing, but christ. I know there is something good and marginally talented in me, but its been turtling the last couple months.